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[Nov. 24th, 2009|02:58 am] |
 
i spent the past four nights not home and realised tt i dont have anything to look forward to at home anymore. it feels like a hotel. hahaha. mayb because im treating it like so, damn it. but i dont think there's much to say bout my life. its either boring or stagnant. =) i miss my dumb dumb.
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[Oct. 15th, 2009|01:54 am] |
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night cycling pictures. apparently they didnt want me in the pictures ma. well, i think kah leong and roydon look damn retarded thats why i decided to post their pictures as well. hilmi didnt take many tt night la. HAHAHA. go to my blogspot to see roydon's mop hair. omg. im still not getting used to it. HAHAHA. sorry roydon. =) just tt he looks damn different now than from the first time i met him. ah well. friends of aida chew's always get exploited in some way. sorry my friends.
anyway, ive been out and drained from school. training was a killer but ive decided to go for every training from now on. the fact i can tahan of shuttle runs proves tt im still there man. and dont look down the shuttle runs. you wont know the pain till you run sia. HA. so NO MORE TONNING NIGHTS ON SAT if not, i will never turn up for training the next day. GDC wld know sia. hahaha. sianxzxz.
i think ive updated enough here la. cause im getting sleepy and school starts at 8 tmr so i need to wake up extra early. ohh wells.
Goodnight
where are you now? |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2009|01:08 am] |
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my ohh so bitchy friend. DANIEL CHAN. hahaha. can never stop arguing with him la. wah sian. im starting to miss my long hair. i miss having something to cover my face with la. =( hahaha. im so waiting it t grow for now.
ive spent my days aimlessly. surprise parties, drinking parties etc etc. im updating more on blogger anyway but once in a while here la. ohh ya. caught the ugly truth with hilmi, reiko and hafiz. the next day caught the same show with arjun, vic, son, ali, leo, shurui and scott. hahaha. what a way to waste time i swear. this is also why money is depleting damn fast, knnccb. hahaha.
okay. im bored. dying from boredom. i have this huge feeling i wont be able to sleep tonight cause i only woke up at like 8 just now, my family isnt home yet. so im still alone. hahaha. nobody loves me lor. i damn sad now, fuck. elle, when the fuck am i going to meet you? ohh ya, this goes the same for myn actually. irritating bums man. ris's coming back tmr. so im so going to meet her. alright, kthanksbye. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|01:04 am] |
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SELAMAT HARI RAYA MY MALAY FRIENDS.
AND HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST JACOB. WE"LL DEFINITELY CELEBRATE LA. =) LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP.
visiting was boring yet tiring. wait, everything's tiring to me, scratch tt. hahaha. tts tt. met reiko and bff at eastpoint. so now im home. short day. tmr's training, den rushing down to the east side for visiting. sianxzxz. damn. tues weiern and nails, wed training, thurs wife, fri training, sat visiting, sun training. soon, i'll have absolutely no social life. =(
MR LIN, I PASSED YOU MY NUMBER AT MY OLD POST WHERE YOU COMMENTED. MSG ME NOW NOW NOW.
Goodnight
believe me, im lying. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2009|06:17 am] |
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went for larve's birthday chalet. hahaha. was suppose to go back but got caught up with hari raya ironing at home. =( i'll post more pictures when i get them frm christabel uh. hahaha.
tim, people hate me saying this. but if i didnt mean it, i wld be lying to myself. i miss you badly. fuck.
Goodnight
quit playing games with my heart |
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[Sep. 16th, 2009|08:40 am] |
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i decided to spent ytd at home, well at least till dinner la. hahaha. met asyraf and "jack" under the block, followed by hafiz at melville. we had a rather interesting convo bout my past. HA. and it got me thinking.
im sick of everything, im sick of living my life. i hate that feeling of always having something missing from my life. after everything, i just cant bring myself to trust anyone, let alone getting to know someone. im not brave, i dont have the willingness to try again, for now. well, i did try but it got slapped right back to my face. im slowly just giving up, explains why im always so tired. im tired from thinking bout everything. anything, everything. i just cant seem to do it anymore.
kthanksbye |
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[Sep. 15th, 2009|04:18 pm] |
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i spent the whole opening this page up but i didnt blog anything till now. hahaha. mum's cooking and im hungry. i fast today even if im not allowed to. hahaha. ohh well. i spent the last few hours, listening and downloading songs. =) mum just came back from sending umar and im meeting asyraf ltr for leps session. the perks of not having school now. hahaha.
I WENT TO MEET MY INDIANS YTD. jessie and james. hahaha. =) accompanied gwen to arab st ytd to get her bling for her laptop. den went to millenia walk for frolick, and trained to siglap. shurui, chester ian etc etc were there. bumped into janelle tan as well. idiot wanted to get a cake. hahaha. left for simpang to meet hafiz and reiko. SYAD NABEEL WEIERN HILMI SHAFIQ AHMAD were from the airport so they were nice to make a pit stop at simpang too. hahaha. they never fail to make me smile. love you guys. =)
den went to leps at melville. hafiz, reiko, ashraf and me. i went swimming and we just started talking rubbish. =) ashraf sent me home. ohh well. im fucking bored at home and this is why i hate staying home. mum's mouth never closes. damn it.
Goodbye
A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous |
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|12:22 am] |
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ive been out the past two nights, and i havent been catching up on sleep. i finally met up with the GDC crew ytd. HAHAHA. and what a hell lot of fun we had. but something was still missing. everything felt great for that moment, but once you take a step back, you'll realise that you wanted something more real, something that stayed. something tt makes you feel alive. and damn it, thats when i realised, i still missed you after all this time. fucked up.
slept the whole day and woke up to eat only. went down to simei to meet hafiz and reiko. stayed till 11 plus and bused home with nick and cherie. so technically, ive been up since den. im kinda waiting for CSI to start too. hahaha. im suppose to meet gwen at 1 tmr so hopefully i'll be able to wake up. jessie for coffee in the evening, and mayb simpang at night. hahaha.
i just wanted to forget you. i occupied myself with so many things which did help for a while but after having to come home, early with ironing to do, it just made me think, think alot about everything thats been happening. i feel as if ive been running away from something i cannot. running away from something i should be strong enough to get over without having to back down. damn it. im just going to watch my CSI now.
Goodnight
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[Sep. 12th, 2009|12:17 pm] |
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pool pro in the centre picture. HAHAHA. (macam paham only) =)
im meeting buddy ltr at yishun. one long bus ride there. well, not exactly long but its still far away sia. hahaha. sianxzxz. my phone is officially screwed up sia. i cant see the screen at all la. IT DROPPED ON THE FLOOR WHILE I WAS SLEEPING. fucked up shit. now i dont have phone. depressed. =(
anyhoo, went down to town for hilmi's birthday celebration. left at 10 plus to simpang. met larve at her house first. SUPPER, leps at larve's house den off to janelle's hse bout 2. we talked all the way till 6 bout everything. after so long we actually found the time to be like how we used to be sia. hahaha. time passed fucking fast. ohh ya, me and janelle can become professional thieves, right janelle tan chin fang? =) anyway, cabbed home at 6 plus, slept till 11 plus when my mum started nagging at home. wahlao.
now just waiting for time to pass so that i can go for my bbq. staying home is boring shitxzxz. even now tt my parents decided to be assholes, all the more im not staying at home sia. hahaha. tonning in town ltr with syad and co for part two of hilmi's birthday celebration. =) so exciting. now i have to go and send my bro for tuition and wait till he's done. =( what a boring life i lead.
Goodbye
you surprise me in many ways, can i see you?
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[Sep. 11th, 2009|04:44 am] |
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that girl on the picture has alr went back to dunno where for uni. omg. NADINE GOUGH, IM GOING TO MISS YOU. YOU BETTER TAKE CARE OUT THERE ALRIGHT. i want to see you when you come back. AND, if my parents are nice next yr, i might go down and visit you. i love you my childhood friend. 18 yrs and still counting. =)
hafiz left bout 330. sahur la uh. hahaha. just talked about rubbish la. now i cant seem to go back to sleep. god. this so not good. lucky tmr i decided to buke at home cause im broke. mummy doesnt want to give me money sia. sianxzxz. ohh wells. going to newton and mayb to simpang agn to meet the SAC ppl. hahaha. im excited.
im left with 8 sticks for tmr. sianxzxz. great. =(
youre fucked up shit.
pardon my english, its 5 in the morning.
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[Sep. 11th, 2009|02:08 am] |
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friends like this, never come so easily. which would include azhar, daniel, shaiful.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HILMI. hahaha. you're finally 18 and still cute la. =) love love. see you ltr on uh.
anyway, i spent my day quite uselessly, damn it. hahaha. went down to leps with shurui and the rest at siglap den proceeded to plaza sing for dinner with family. free flow of drinks and ice cream. fucking good but my stomach has just too big alr sia. chester lum said im fat alr, so sad sia. stupid dipshit man. went down to kallang, to wait for hafiz to pick me up. went to simpang for leps session. hahaha. he sent me home and now im waiting for him to pick me up agn. HAHAHA. =)
meeting syad and co tmr, like finally sia. hahaha. hilmi's birthday celebration. azhar's bbq on sat too. i think i might going for training on sunday if mummy's doesnt insist me on going to break fast at home. hahaha. and im starting to feel irritated with someone agn. omg omg omg. why why why are you being such a bitch? i cant stand it. fuck la cb.
Goodnight
being a friend is bout honesty, you're not even being fucking honest la fuck.
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[Sep. 10th, 2009|02:46 am] |
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MY EXAMS ARE OVER AND IM FREE AS A BIRD FOR NOW. sian. =( just came home from a night of indepth thoughts. hahaha. CPA was fucked up but im glad its done like finally. =) went over to zara's hse to get stuff, home and officially knocked out. was suppose to make my way to the airport but i was too sleepy. ha.
geylang was fun. it was me, buddy, daniel, ilyas(like finally), azhar, ain and dol. buddy was my bf for the day la uh. hahaha. makan, and ended up playing pool. simpang to meet hafiz and reiko. with the company of his friends as well. interesting people, i must add. melville for a while and imran sent me home. hahaha.
they had a really thorough conversation just now tt made me think. at some points in life, whatever they said made sense but at the end of day, its not something i would be giving alot of time to think about. mayb its the age gap. i dunno but it did make a little impact la uh. ohh wells. im not going to think bout it la. my life is about talking rubbish which includes, hurling vulgarities tt i dont mean to my friends. hahaha. love love la. okay. i need to have a shower and sleep.
Goodnight world
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[Sep. 9th, 2009|01:56 am] |
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aiseh, aida chew cn become butch right? HAHAHA. =)
eddie goh, LJ isnt lan jiao. bloody noob. hahaha. anyway, BEV was shit. i practically forgot everything i read just a few mins before. hahaha. hasnah was nice enough to msg us sia. =) anyhoo, went home, bathed, changed and met shurui at starbucks for suppposedly studying time but we didnt get through it HA. she left, and i went to meet reiko and hafiz, hafiz and another hafiz at city hall. three hafizes, so cool right? HA.after dinner, simei den andrew tan remembered me as a friend so he came down to talk to me.
I MET MY WIFE TODAY AFTER A MILLION YEARS. god. finally. talked alot of rubbish. hahaha. in the end, decided to go for macs because starbucks was fucking humid. diyanah came down to accompany us too. soon after, shurui, friend friend and many other friends came down as well, including mel and ashu. small gathering sia. HAHAHA.
AND TMR IS MY CPA PAPER AND IM SUPPOSE TO BE IN SCHOOL BY 730, GOOD LUCK AIDA CHEW YI LING. fucking sian. hahaha. but there's breakfast provided. thats a perk. im so looking forward to tmr. last day of school and bye school for one month. better than nothing right? assholes. i miss you.
Goodnight
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[Sep. 6th, 2009|10:28 pm] |
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one of the days we went to georges as usual. hahaha. =)
im back home from jessie's surprise party. i swear her dad's the bomb to actually plan something like this for her la. if only my dad would have the same kind of initiative. my dad doesnt even know what to do for his anniversary, what more my birthday uh. hahaha. sian. ohh wells. im home early cause daddy asked me to be. =)
mr lin, you commented so pls tell me when you're coming back alright. den we'll plan a meet up like really cause i miss you la. hahaha. i miss your vulgar yet holy personality. HAHAHA.
anyway, im so not prepared for my exams tmr and nothing is going into my head. really. its like blank now so i better continue reading my books and pray that something goes in before i forget everything. sian sia. =(
Goodnight
i just miss you like i always do. |
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[Sep. 6th, 2009|03:00 pm] |
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finally mel decided to upload the pictures on FB. hahaha. im too lazy to blog. ive been having fun and tmr's my exams. great aida chew great. alr screwed up for o's, still want to screw up your ITE. =(
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[Sep. 1st, 2009|12:07 am] |
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[Aug. 31st, 2009|10:05 pm] |
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this was how i spent my fri night. =) went down to baybeats with syad all. den proceeded to georges den to FOO HOUSE for lepak session with the SAC grp. hahaha. we had fun talking about the past as usual. and some of the present but ohh wells. cabbed home with winner tay uh. hahaha.
sat was sleep in day. =) dinner afterwards den went to WS with zara and lisa for HK cafe. shiok. sunday tamp with zara lim. went walking ard and a bit of shopping la. den pool at parkway with andrew. aly came. bumped into hanzong den made a visit to his new house. fucking nice. im going swimming there one day. hahaha.
after gwen's hse, went to lepak under sher's blk with larve and gekming and a few more uh. den katong for pool, simei for dinner, leshia came too. hahaha. but im home early cause mummy's orders. but mummy also not at home. dumb dumb dumb.
coming home early is fucking sian. might decide to study tmr, den pool den family dinner. ohh wells. cant go to eat with my classmates. sad sia. =( i guess next time uh. SORRY LOVE LOVES. last min plans with the family. even if i was the one tt planned it. hahaha. sorry again. very last min nia.
anyway, im feeling very irritated with this certain person. im not going to say who but this person is really bugging me alot. i dunno since when, i dunno why. honestly, i cn say we're good friends but things she do, really irritate the crap out of me. omg omg omg. i feel like telling her off now. but i know i cant cause its going to create tension between our mutual friends. damn it. im telling you, you better stop being an a bitch in front of me, and act cute in front of others uh pls. you disgust me, you really do. fucked up asshole.
okay. i think im going to eat some ice cream to cool myself down. =)
Goodnight
people are not what they say they are.
P.S let me start by saying i love you, and this few months pass, my feelings have been growing. i shall not lie but they faded also when i felt you didnt really care, but all in all, i still love you alot. im a person who will go to extreme measures for the person i really love. so dont doubt me when i say i will do it. if you realized, i rarely go back on my words. if you ask me to sacrifice something for you, cause it affects you i will do it as long as its not unreasonable. i dont mean to compare, hahaha but i hope one day you will be able to understand that being with someone requires alot of give and take and sacrifices. im a person who will repay tha favour. not the bad things for your case as you realize cause i cant bear to do it to the person i love. however i have bad points too. im a person that also craves attention when im with the person i love. i like it when im with you, you're always there to hold my hand. i dont really like being seperated, when i meet you. thats why id rather if study, youre there with me and not talking to someone at another table. hahaha. im selfish. im also a person that may get paranoid and jealous at times. thats why you realize i get affected by the smallest things like seating on guys legs or leaning ard. i also get paranoid at times when you stay up late with guys. im sorry for being like that, thats why i like being assured by both words and actions. i also like long sweet msges. another flaw is i expect people to do back what i do to them, thats why sometimes you hear me being irritated saying what i did that you didnt. hahaha. im sorry but its just me. but slowly i will learn to change cause i learnt that you think differently. but still sometimes i like something in return. sorry ur bf has so many flaws. i love you and wish to last long with you. im sorry i cant be putting in much effort during these few months. its always you coming down for me. i really appreciate it. alright. im going to sleep. you read this MSG when you're not tired. i love you goodnight.
I MISS THE BOY THAT SENT ME THIS. SOMEWAY OR ANOTHER, I STILL LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I USED TO. =( |
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[Aug. 31st, 2009|12:11 pm] |
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i skipped school today and came down to SAC for visit teachers tt meant more to me than my ITE teachers. HAHAHA. =) at gwen's hse now. waiting for tan to finish talking den reunion uh. so exciting nia. havent been blogging these few days. but ive been out out and out. okay. im going now.
kbye |
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[Aug. 28th, 2009|01:20 am] |
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do i find tattoos appealing? HAHAHA. well, at first i didnt. but somehow after staring at him for quite some time, i found him really cute. =) ohh wells.
anyhoo, met asyraf on time. we were at parkway on time. faruq missed dinner cause he fell aslp. great. hahaha. pastamania for dinner and proceeded to play pool. =) i sucked. =( standard la. wahlao. me and asyraf went shopping at giant before breaking fast. den visited the stationary shop to get our minds off food. HAHAHA.
we went down to georges for a random drinking day. pls dont comment bout it being fasting month and all. apparently i cant fast because i have a tongue and naval piercing. means the two past years that i fasted ARE NOT COUNTED!! omg. do you know how depressing is that? sian sia. ohh wells. anyway, im home and i have my OFA exam tmr. im going to sleep.
Goodnight
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