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[Jan. 15th, 2010|04:18 am] |
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i havent been on lj for a fucking long time man. elle and jac, when are you meeting me sia? forget bout me alr right? sia la. i sibei sad can. knn. anyhoo, been out killing myself with cigarettes and convos of rubbish. HAHAHA. i need to meet ppl. i feel unloved. ): |
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[Nov. 24th, 2009|02:58 am] |
 
i spent the past four nights not home and realised tt i dont have anything to look forward to at home anymore. it feels like a hotel. hahaha. mayb because im treating it like so, damn it. but i dont think there's much to say bout my life. its either boring or stagnant. =) i miss my dumb dumb.
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[Oct. 15th, 2009|01:54 am] |
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night cycling pictures. apparently they didnt want me in the pictures ma. well, i think kah leong and roydon look damn retarded thats why i decided to post their pictures as well. hilmi didnt take many tt night la. HAHAHA. go to my blogspot to see roydon's mop hair. omg. im still not getting used to it. HAHAHA. sorry roydon. =) just tt he looks damn different now than from the first time i met him. ah well. friends of aida chew's always get exploited in some way. sorry my friends.
anyway, ive been out and drained from school. training was a killer but ive decided to go for every training from now on. the fact i can tahan of shuttle runs proves tt im still there man. and dont look down the shuttle runs. you wont know the pain till you run sia. HA. so NO MORE TONNING NIGHTS ON SAT if not, i will never turn up for training the next day. GDC wld know sia. hahaha. sianxzxz.
i think ive updated enough here la. cause im getting sleepy and school starts at 8 tmr so i need to wake up extra early. ohh wells.
Goodnight
where are you now? |
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[Oct. 3rd, 2009|01:08 am] |
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my ohh so bitchy friend. DANIEL CHAN. hahaha. can never stop arguing with him la. wah sian. im starting to miss my long hair. i miss having something to cover my face with la. =( hahaha. im so waiting it t grow for now.
ive spent my days aimlessly. surprise parties, drinking parties etc etc. im updating more on blogger anyway but once in a while here la. ohh ya. caught the ugly truth with hilmi, reiko and hafiz. the next day caught the same show with arjun, vic, son, ali, leo, shurui and scott. hahaha. what a way to waste time i swear. this is also why money is depleting damn fast, knnccb. hahaha.
okay. im bored. dying from boredom. i have this huge feeling i wont be able to sleep tonight cause i only woke up at like 8 just now, my family isnt home yet. so im still alone. hahaha. nobody loves me lor. i damn sad now, fuck. elle, when the fuck am i going to meet you? ohh ya, this goes the same for myn actually. irritating bums man. ris's coming back tmr. so im so going to meet her. alright, kthanksbye. |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|01:04 am] |
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SELAMAT HARI RAYA MY MALAY FRIENDS.
AND HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST JACOB. WE"LL DEFINITELY CELEBRATE LA. =) LOVE YOU DEEP DEEP.
visiting was boring yet tiring. wait, everything's tiring to me, scratch tt. hahaha. tts tt. met reiko and bff at eastpoint. so now im home. short day. tmr's training, den rushing down to the east side for visiting. sianxzxz. damn. tues weiern and nails, wed training, thurs wife, fri training, sat visiting, sun training. soon, i'll have absolutely no social life. =(
MR LIN, I PASSED YOU MY NUMBER AT MY OLD POST WHERE YOU COMMENTED. MSG ME NOW NOW NOW.
Goodnight
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[Sep. 19th, 2009|06:17 am] |
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went for larve's birthday chalet. hahaha. was suppose to go back but got caught up with hari raya ironing at home. =( i'll post more pictures when i get them frm christabel uh. hahaha.
tim, people hate me saying this. but if i didnt mean it, i wld be lying to myself. i miss you badly. fuck.
Goodnight
quit playing games with my heart |
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[Sep. 16th, 2009|08:40 am] |
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i decided to spent ytd at home, well at least till dinner la. hahaha. met asyraf and "jack" under the block, followed by hafiz at melville. we had a rather interesting convo bout my past. HA. and it got me thinking.
im sick of everything, im sick of living my life. i hate that feeling of always having something missing from my life. after everything, i just cant bring myself to trust anyone, let alone getting to know someone. im not brave, i dont have the willingness to try again, for now. well, i did try but it got slapped right back to my face. im slowly just giving up, explains why im always so tired. im tired from thinking bout everything. anything, everything. i just cant seem to do it anymore.
kthanksbye |
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[Sep. 15th, 2009|04:18 pm] |
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i spent the whole opening this page up but i didnt blog anything till now. hahaha. mum's cooking and im hungry. i fast today even if im not allowed to. hahaha. ohh well. i spent the last few hours, listening and downloading songs. =) mum just came back from sending umar and im meeting asyraf ltr for leps session. the perks of not having school now. hahaha.
I WENT TO MEET MY INDIANS YTD. jessie and james. hahaha. =) accompanied gwen to arab st ytd to get her bling for her laptop. den went to millenia walk for frolick, and trained to siglap. shurui, chester ian etc etc were there. bumped into janelle tan as well. idiot wanted to get a cake. hahaha. left for simpang to meet hafiz and reiko. SYAD NABEEL WEIERN HILMI SHAFIQ AHMAD were from the airport so they were nice to make a pit stop at simpang too. hahaha. they never fail to make me smile. love you guys. =)
den went to leps at melville. hafiz, reiko, ashraf and me. i went swimming and we just started talking rubbish. =) ashraf sent me home. ohh well. im fucking bored at home and this is why i hate staying home. mum's mouth never closes. damn it.
Goodbye
A kiss is a lovely trick, designed by nature, to stop words when speech becomes superfluous |
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|12:22 am] |
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ive been out the past two nights, and i havent been catching up on sleep. i finally met up with the GDC crew ytd. HAHAHA. and what a hell lot of fun we had. but something was still missing. everything felt great for that moment, but once you take a step back, you'll realise that you wanted something more real, something that stayed. something tt makes you feel alive. and damn it, thats when i realised, i still missed you after all this time. fucked up.
slept the whole day and woke up to eat only. went down to simei to meet hafiz and reiko. stayed till 11 plus and bused home with nick and cherie. so technically, ive been up since den. im kinda waiting for CSI to start too. hahaha. im suppose to meet gwen at 1 tmr so hopefully i'll be able to wake up. jessie for coffee in the evening, and mayb simpang at night. hahaha.
i just wanted to forget you. i occupied myself with so many things which did help for a while but after having to come home, early with ironing to do, it just made me think, think alot about everything thats been happening. i feel as if ive been running away from something i cannot. running away from something i should be strong enough to get over without having to back down. damn it. im just going to watch my CSI now.
Goodnight
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